WARNING: Extremely immature, incoherent post below. Read at your own risk; you have been warned. Patronizing/condescending/there-are-people-worse-off-than-you comments will NOT be tolerated.

No seriously, this post is pretty whiny.

Last warning.

Don’t give me crap about how I didn’t warn you and about how immature and spoiled I sound.

This post will be a stream of consciousness because I am not in the mood to think about a specific subject to talk about. Who said that that has to be a rule for blogs anyway. -_-

I understand that teachers probably do know and care more about us that we actually believe, but sometimes I think they fail to remember we have a life outside of class. I know it’s my duty as a student to meet those expectations and that I shouldn’t be complaining, but I’M GOING TO COMPLAIN ANYWAYS. Because I feel like my life right now is all messed up and confused and it’s not working out, so everyone just bear with me. (There aren’t any people who read this anyways.) Yesterday I finally slept for over 10 hours and what was my punishment for sleeping well? A project due the next class. Homework I didn’t know about. (Ok this might not make any sense to people reading this because I’m not naming any specific classes or assignments but hopefully people will know what I mean). I had a test today and I feel so stupid because I forgot to memorize certain formulas for it when I was confident that I had covered everything.I AM SO UNHAPPY RIGHT NOW. And SOMEONE will be like “Well Jane you should feel thankful that you’re attending such a nice school and living in such nice conditions blablabla” well DUH who said I wasn’t thankful?! Who said that I don’t realize how lucky i am? I do! But there are times, my friends, when you should just shut up and let people rant. We can’t live our lives in constant comparison to other’s lives. If you put it that way am I lucky compared to the billionaire stock owners on Wall Street, or to the beautiful and loved celebrities that make up 1% of the world’s population but 500% of the global media who probably eat gold for breakfast or some such thing? I guess I sound really immature right now but…if you’re already reading up to here then that means you decided to ignore the warning, and now that’s your fault. Back to my main point, I am so unhappy right now. Third quarter is always the hardest quarter. I feel my academics slipping and really i am trying my best, but I have so much going on…It sounds like another stupid excuse but it’s not. It’s just that I don’t feel like going into detail about what is going on in my life. And I try my hardest in school but I have to balance that with APs and volunteer work and tutor and eating and sleeping and breathing. Since when has our world created such high expectations of everyone. I guess some sort of qualification process is needed to lead in today’s society, but I think our current system of academics is NOT IT. It’s just stupid. ANd when you take a good look at some of the people with wealth or power or fame, you realize that education had nothing to do with it (e.g. certain presidents….cough cough just saying). Our current system of academics is basically “Just how far can go to kill yourself every night and still maintain a perfect GPA with honors and extracurriculars? Just how perfect a human can you be?” Or maybe it’s just Korean society that dictates this. Or maybe it’s just KIS society. I don’t know. Whatever it is, it is RETARDED and it is killing me. It is literally LITERALLY not figuratvely LITERALLY draining the happiness out of my life. When I shower, I can see the happiness drift down with the shampoo suds. When I wash my hands, I can feel the happiness slipping with the soap. I have no life.

Hopefully my next post won’t be as ranty as this one.